Getting back on the path...to happiness!

A few years ago...I started on a path of healing and enlightenment. I don't think I knew that is what I was doing. At that time I just knew I HAD to do something. I couldn't continue doing what I was doing, and expect to have a better life, or be a better person. I was looking for happiness, joy, something better...something more.

Once I made the decision in my head, the world started to open up to me. Every turn there was another opportunity to be enlightened...and to grow. I asked the Universe, and the Universe answered. I have said before that one of my favorite pastimes is to go into the bookstore...and see where my eye is drawn...Often, I find myself drawn to books that answer a question or have insight to a particular problem I am currently dealing with....It's amazing, you should try it. All you have to do is relax, and browse.

Not too long ago, I hit a wall. A HARD wall...I have been knocked on my ass...and am still trying to pull myself out of the rubble. At the moment it happened, it shook my entire body...and I felt the crash in my mind. I was hurdled into despair, self doubt, depression...hopelessness. Ouch! I wasn't prepared! I had been in a place of joy and was completely and totally enveloped in the idea of a positive future. However, my joy, my outlook, was tied to another person. When that person didn't seem to be following the same path I was, and I realized it, I crashed.

The problem was that I attached my idea of happiness to that of another person. That is where I made my biggest mistake. There is a saying that "if mama ain't happy, then nobody's happy". That's a bad saying...Our happiness is not and should not be contingent on another person's happiness...not even mamas. We are solely responsible for our own happiness. It is completely ours. If we are not happy, it's a choice we make. If we are elated...it's a choice we make. Even if the cable goes out, the clerk at the grocery store was rude, the neighbors are idiots...We can still CHOOSE to be happy.

I WANT to be happy. I want everyone in my life to be happy too. What I cannot do is MAKE someone else happy, or blame them if I am not. It's not fair, it's not practical, and it just doesn't work. All the stars in the Universe do not have to align up in perfect order for us to be happy...We just have to choose to be happy...and then support that with positive attitude, and (in my case) forgiveness.

Although at this very moment I am still digging out of the rubble of what has happened to me...I am on the right path. It's MY path...I am responsible for it! Me and me alone. I HOPE that the people that I love will follow...if not my exact path, the journey to happiness. However, I have to accept that they may not. Not because I will do anything, or there is anything I can do, but because it is Their choice to follow a different path.

Every moment is a chance to be happy. It's a choice. YOUR choice. I choose to get back on the path of joy! Want to come??? It's your choice!!