Acceptance, Hope and some Faith

~ You have to accept whatever comes and the only important thing is that you meet it with courage and with the best that you have to give. ~ Eleanor Roosevelt

The biggest part about moving forward with a decision that will make a significant life change is learning to accept what is. I have to accept the decision I made, which came by accepting what was really going on in my life, and what I really wanted and needed, as well as what I was giving. I had to accept the truth about the way I felt, why I felt it, and what making such a big decision was going to mean.

So many of us have a problem with acceptance. I will admit that I have struggled with it myself. Why can't I have this?...Why can't things be better? Why can't you be the person I need you to be? Why can't I just be happy with the way things are? Does acceptance mean I have to like something the way it is? No, it just means that I have to acknowledge it is the way it is, and then make a choice how am I going to handle it. I do not like the fact that eating certain foods is going to make me fat...but, if I am unwilling to accept that fact, then fat I will be...

In the beginning...I seemed to fall into acceptance relatively easily. Making a decision like this was like lifting a weight off my soul...I knew this was the right decision, and I knew I was making it for the right reasons. However, what I have no control over, is other peoples acceptance, or lake there of. Another major part of this...is accepting the choices that other people make, that they feel is right for them. It's tough. Especially when you don't like the choice, or if they don't like yours.

I have to accept the choice that I have made. I have to accept that my life is about to be completely upturned. I have to accept that some people just don't understand. I have to accept that I have hurt some people. I have to accept that am hurting too. I have to accept that not all things are going to go the way I hope they will...but sometimes they will.

What I have is Hope...and some Faith. I have faith that although my heart is broken in a million pieces right now...one day, those pieces are going to start to put themselves back together. I have hope for a better life...For happier days and the love I finally feel I deserve.

Today I will practice acceptance....I will hold on to hope, and I will have faith. Faith that things are moving in the direction that I need...that I will come out of this a much happier person. In keeping with that, I came across this quote the other day...Wow, sometimes it's amazing to find I am not alone...

“There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout:
This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me... or leave me. Accept me - or walk away! Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision.
When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad - you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you.” Stacey Charter