Where oh where have I been?

Somewhere between acceptance and abandonment. I mean that with a bit of whimsy. I'm still doing pretty good...still holding my own. There are things that I still have to get used to...and some things I still need to let go of.

One thing for sure...I need to give myself a break! I've been running myself into the ground lately. Trying to juggle it all! Sound familiar? Most of us get trapped in the cycle of run run run...don't stop, there is so much left to do...However...it's time to slow down.

This last weekend was kind of a milestone so to speak. My Ex husbands birthday is July 3. We've always been the one to have the 4th of July party, because we tied his birthday into it. This year, it wasn't my job to put something together...and there was a part of me that was glad. However, there is a little bit of sadness too. He did his thing, I did mine...and somewhere in the middle, we had a good time.

This was my weekend with the kids, but I asked if wanted to see them on his birthday. He didn't respond to my request, but planned on taking the kids the whole weekend...GREAT! I didn't have anything planned for us, but he did...At first I was glad for all of them...Then I realized...Shit, now I got nothing to do. Then, out of no where, I got a really sweet offer....A friend offered to have me come stay with him and his friend on the friends yacht. WHAT??? At first I said no...but then I said, if he agreed to come pick me up, I'd go. He did...so away I went.

What's that saying??? Just what the Dr ordered...It was beautiful, laid back, no pressure. The people were welcoming and I didn't feel out of place at all. I got some sun, splashed around in the water...took a walk to watch the sunset. Sigh...I wish it could have lasted longer. I am so grateful for the invitation. Now, I just need to learn to say Yes, right off the bat.

Each and every day is about learning...Pay attention. To your thoughts, your body, your emotions...and the things around you. There are signs all around...but you'll miss them if you're not paying attention. So, I get it. Pay attention! Be grateful...for each and every moment.

Btw...The picture at the top...I took that! Isn't it beautiful!!