It's official...at least for today

It's official...I'm am OFF the market! YES!!!

Not because I have found my soul mate...or Mr Wonderful...or even Stud for now. I am off the market cause I want something more...something better. Something REAL and GOOD.

I am a big believer in the Law of Attraction. I believe we draw to us people based on our attitude and how we live our life. For awhile now, I've been thinking about the people I've been spending my time with...

There is a saying about the people that come into your life...People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. People come into your life with purpose....Even if we WANT them to be there longer than they are, or for a different reason, they are there to fill a need in our lives...Once that need is met, they move on... Sometimes WE are the one's that need to move on. Either way, you need to let them go once they have served their purpose. That is not about being selfish, but being honest and pure about the relationship. If not, there can be resentment and anger. Certainly not intentionally...

For some time, I have know it was time to let some people go. People that I am sure saved me! People that I love...but that are now draining me. For a while, I have been fighting it...trying to keep a part of those relationships alive...when I could see that it was not healthy for any of us. I can feel the bitterness inside me. I don't want that....I want to keep the special part of our relationships, special. It's time to let go. Not easy, but necessary.

Today, it also became clear to me, the same holds true for my relationships with men. Too much flirting...Too many of them sniffing around...Just last week, I gave MY number to a guy I was attracted too. Not easy, but I was so proud of myself...He was interested...woo hoo. Win win. We made a date for that very weekend... Well, no date, he's back with his EX fiance. What??? Ugh, really??? A friend told me one time that men are more attracted to women who are unavailable... They don't really have to be taken or in a relationship, the just have to seem unavailable...It's a vibe we put off...We've all been there at some point, thinking to ourselves...NOW they're interested????

Well...I'm off the market. Done trying, done flirting (well not completely!) done with the guys who think I'm "hot" or sexy or really just want to get into my bed. DONE! I want more...I want something real. I want that guy who wants to be with me, talking about everything or nothing...wants to know everything about me...and wants to answer every question I ask about him. Of course I want to be totally attracted to him, and completely smitten. I want that...even if it's not for the rest of my life... but at least for more than a week or two. I want that, more than anything. So why am I not getting it? Well, maybe because of what I have filled my life with. I'm not living like I want...I'm settling for the crumbs, when the cake is still in the box.

I have made the decision to stop. I'm not settling for crumbs...The next guy that wants to be with me is gonna have to work hard for me to pay attention. I'm waiting for not only what I deserve...but for someone who deserves me... I'm gonna be greedy and particular. My life, my heart, my happiness...is my priority. I'm going to get there by taking myself off the market of quick and easy. Done, let go...move on.